Monday, January 22, 2007

Selfishness or Sanity

Sometimes going through this I just want to run away. Yesterday was one of those days, I just wanted to have some time to myself. It started with a run to the drug store to pick up some cold medicine for Michaela and pain killers for Ron. I was also planning on attending church this weekend for the first time in a month...being away from home can be so hard. I had gone to a women's group called Take a Break last Thursday and it was so awesome. Michaela was able to go to a child's group at the same time and we both really enjoyed it. So I had planned on attending this church, they have Saturday evening and Sunday morning services. But Saturday evening we were going out for dinner with Ron's brothers as they were heading home the next day. Turns out Saturday morning my niece had come into town to take Michaela to a gymnastics competition to watch in the morning...which means I will be watching it as well....this means no church for me this week.

So many days are like this and mostly I don't have a problem, I love taking care of Ron while he is hurting I want to be a comfort to him during this time. I want my daughter to have fun things to do while we are so far from home and all things familiar, even though she doesn't know what is going on she knows daddy is sick.

When I have my selfish moments I pray for patience, God did give me my time yesterday. My brother and his family came into town in the afternoon and we went out together and left Ron and Michaela at home to nap was great. I love spending time with them and sometimes I really do need to get out on my own.

I guess I shouldn't call them selfish moments...more sanity moments. Even though sometimes I do feel selfish taking some time to myself I always feel much more refreshed after it...and feel that I am better able to take care of my family.


Christy said...

Hi Anne. I am not sure if you remember me but I am your brother Bill's neice Christy. I am also friends with Tanya who you attended bible study with at the Efree in Terrace! I just wanted to let you know that we are praying for you and Ron and your daughter!Nothing is impossible with God and we are believing with you for a miracle!

If you are interested in checking out my blog the address is:

Take Care!

org junkie said...

Oh Annie, don't ever think it is selfish to take some time to yourself. You do what you need to do and it will make you stronger and better able to take care of your hubbie and sweet little girl.

One day at a time....

Tonja said...

I have been through 3 critical illnesses with my children, and this I know. If I am not good to myself...I can not be good to them. You MUST take some time away and refresh your soul. That is the only way you will have enough to give to your husband. God bless!