Thursday, June 7, 2007

Seizures and Ranting!!

Seizures are awful...they completely take everything out of Ron.

We have tried to control them with medication but he still has them when he is stressed. He had a doctor's appointment yesterday and he was doing great, got to the van really strong. Then in the doctor's office he had a seizure...I feel so helpless when these happen. He was feeling good so we got him in his wheelchair and back home...then I couldn't get him in the house. I had one of our neighbours come and get him up the stairs in his wheelchair...praise God Chris was home!!!

There are times when I'm so angry, as if it isn't bad enough that Ron has cancer...but he is also blind, can't walk unassisted, has seizures and gets so confused. I'm not sure why we are going through this, it is so hard to see Ron like this. Some days the blessings aren't so clear.

I look at our life and what is has become, I would never believe that something like this has happened to us. I long for the days when we could just go for a walk, go for a drive, have a picnic...just be a normal family. I never realized how much I took the simple pleasures in life for granted.

This is a pretty downer post, but I'm not feeling so positive today. I try and always sound positive to Ron, but sometimes I just like to let things out.

4 comments:

odat_kim said...

*hugs*
Kim

Org Junkie said...

Oh Annie, thank you for sharing what is on your heart. It helps me to know how to specifically pray for you.

"I would have lost heart, unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait on the Lord; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; wait, I say, on the Lord!"

Psalm 27:13-14

Love you!

paleraven50 said...

Yes Ann, you to are allowed to have your "feel sorry for myself" (i'm not being sarcastic) days. You are going through such a tough time right now, you are entitile to your days as well, it hurts to see your loved ones hurting. Myself growing up had Grand Mal Seizures, it was tough on me, very embarrassing. They are controlled by meds now have been for years. I can't imagine the cancer and the blindness on top of it all it would take a strong person to deal with that and that is what you are Ann a very strong person, so that is why once in awhile you are allowed to have your day to feel the way you do. Do you get homecare or anything how about you do you have someone to talk to daily i mean? Take care of yourself Ann. Sue

Jenny said...

Hugs to you Annie.
I can relate to knowing what it's like to see a loved one have seizures. Let me know if you ever need help or someone to talk to!
Thinking of you!