Ron passed away today at 8:35am. He was peaceful and I was by his side.
I will miss him until we are together again!!
Saturday, July 28, 2007
Monday, July 2, 2007
Update
Well Ron continues to fight, he is such a strong man. He still can't hear or see, but is able to tell us what he needs or asks questions that we can nod or shake his head yes or no.
He is eating and drinking really well, I think that is really keeping him strong...he has such a fight to live.
I'm still staying at the hospital with him, they brought in a bed for me so I didn't have to sleep on the couch anymore...unless Michaela stays with us then she wants the bed.
Oh and one night in the hospital parking lot last week someone smashed in my van windows and stole my CDs (they were all Christian music so maybe they will do them some good), can you believe that...getting it all fixed up though. My church has offered to replace my CDs...I thought that was so sweet!! To be honest I didn't care about the van or the CDs things can always be replaced, it is amazing how little I cared, I was more concerned about the time it would take away from Ron.
We are all doing as well as we can and spending a lot of time in prayer and just being with Ron. Even while in a hospital bed I still look at him as the same handsome, strong man that I fell in love with and continue to love with all my heart!!
He is eating and drinking really well, I think that is really keeping him strong...he has such a fight to live.
I'm still staying at the hospital with him, they brought in a bed for me so I didn't have to sleep on the couch anymore...unless Michaela stays with us then she wants the bed.
Oh and one night in the hospital parking lot last week someone smashed in my van windows and stole my CDs (they were all Christian music so maybe they will do them some good), can you believe that...getting it all fixed up though. My church has offered to replace my CDs...I thought that was so sweet!! To be honest I didn't care about the van or the CDs things can always be replaced, it is amazing how little I cared, I was more concerned about the time it would take away from Ron.
We are all doing as well as we can and spending a lot of time in prayer and just being with Ron. Even while in a hospital bed I still look at him as the same handsome, strong man that I fell in love with and continue to love with all my heart!!
Thursday, June 21, 2007
The Journey
Once again I have to post about the end of this journey. Ron has been in the hospital for the last week after a very rapid decline. He became quite weak and has lost his hearing, quite a devastating turn for someone who also lost his sight.
The CT Scan showed that the tumor has grown substantially, the Dr. called it a monster. He sleeps most of the time, but we do still find ways to communicate.
We know the end is near and we just have to wait and be with him. I'm so angry, sad, hurt and brokenhearted.
I've talked to Michaela about what is going on, she has taken things quite well...she is sad but knows that her daddy will always be with her.
Thank you all for your prayers, I know Ron isn't in any pain and he is at peace...I'm so thankful for that blessing.
The CT Scan showed that the tumor has grown substantially, the Dr. called it a monster. He sleeps most of the time, but we do still find ways to communicate.
We know the end is near and we just have to wait and be with him. I'm so angry, sad, hurt and brokenhearted.
I've talked to Michaela about what is going on, she has taken things quite well...she is sad but knows that her daddy will always be with her.
Thank you all for your prayers, I know Ron isn't in any pain and he is at peace...I'm so thankful for that blessing.
Thursday, June 7, 2007
Seizures and Ranting!!
Seizures are awful...they completely take everything out of Ron.
We have tried to control them with medication but he still has them when he is stressed. He had a doctor's appointment yesterday and he was doing great, got to the van really strong. Then in the doctor's office he had a seizure...I feel so helpless when these happen. He was feeling good so we got him in his wheelchair and back home...then I couldn't get him in the house. I had one of our neighbours come and get him up the stairs in his wheelchair...praise God Chris was home!!!
There are times when I'm so angry, as if it isn't bad enough that Ron has cancer...but he is also blind, can't walk unassisted, has seizures and gets so confused. I'm not sure why we are going through this, it is so hard to see Ron like this. Some days the blessings aren't so clear.
I look at our life and what is has become, I would never believe that something like this has happened to us. I long for the days when we could just go for a walk, go for a drive, have a picnic...just be a normal family. I never realized how much I took the simple pleasures in life for granted.
This is a pretty downer post, but I'm not feeling so positive today. I try and always sound positive to Ron, but sometimes I just like to let things out.
We have tried to control them with medication but he still has them when he is stressed. He had a doctor's appointment yesterday and he was doing great, got to the van really strong. Then in the doctor's office he had a seizure...I feel so helpless when these happen. He was feeling good so we got him in his wheelchair and back home...then I couldn't get him in the house. I had one of our neighbours come and get him up the stairs in his wheelchair...praise God Chris was home!!!
There are times when I'm so angry, as if it isn't bad enough that Ron has cancer...but he is also blind, can't walk unassisted, has seizures and gets so confused. I'm not sure why we are going through this, it is so hard to see Ron like this. Some days the blessings aren't so clear.
I look at our life and what is has become, I would never believe that something like this has happened to us. I long for the days when we could just go for a walk, go for a drive, have a picnic...just be a normal family. I never realized how much I took the simple pleasures in life for granted.
This is a pretty downer post, but I'm not feeling so positive today. I try and always sound positive to Ron, but sometimes I just like to let things out.
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Chemo
Ron's chemo finished on Sunday, it wasn't as easy this month as it has been. I understand that the drug can build up in the body, that would explain this month. Ron was a bit nauseous (never happened before), and really really tired.
When anything different happens I go through the fear that something is changing with is tumor. He has been sleeping quite a bit lately and if it continues I think I'll have to call the doctor, I'm thinking that it is still from his chemo...but I hope it doesn't continue too much longer.
I had a wonderful visit with my sister this weekend, I was so sad when she left...I just love my family. They have been such a huge support system going through all of this.
Just a short post today, not too much else going on.
When anything different happens I go through the fear that something is changing with is tumor. He has been sleeping quite a bit lately and if it continues I think I'll have to call the doctor, I'm thinking that it is still from his chemo...but I hope it doesn't continue too much longer.
I had a wonderful visit with my sister this weekend, I was so sad when she left...I just love my family. They have been such a huge support system going through all of this.
Just a short post today, not too much else going on.
Monday, May 21, 2007
Ups and Downs
Wow I'm about done with this roller coaster!!
I haven't posted anything in a while, sometimes I feel like all I want to do is whine about what is going on...then sometimes things seem pretty good.
Today had everything in it...the weather has been so amazing the last couple of days and Ron loves to get out on the deck and enjoy the fresh air. Today I got him a lounger so he'd be more comfortable...he loved it. We were able to spend the afternoon together outside, Michaela playing on her swing set, me planting some flowers and Ron relaxing. We BBQ'd for dinner and ate outside...it was great. Then getting Ron back in the house was quite an ordeal. He was feeling pretty weak so it took us a while to get him to his recliner ( he had to use his walker to get there). Then at bedtime it took a few attempts to get there, the weakness is tough to deal with. Ron is a big guy and when he goes down I can't do that much to help him. It is so hard to see him like that, he gets so confused at the same time...tough to deal with.
We are starting his 3rd cycle of chemo this Wednesday, it takes a lot out of him but at least he doesn't get nauseous.
The best is my sister is coming to visit me this weekend...I'm so excited to see her again (she lives on Vancouver Island). She has been such an amazing spiritual support to me during this time. We're going to have a big BBQ on Sunday while she is here...I just love when my family comes to visit!!
Well I think I'll leave it on this high note...Good Night!!
I haven't posted anything in a while, sometimes I feel like all I want to do is whine about what is going on...then sometimes things seem pretty good.
Today had everything in it...the weather has been so amazing the last couple of days and Ron loves to get out on the deck and enjoy the fresh air. Today I got him a lounger so he'd be more comfortable...he loved it. We were able to spend the afternoon together outside, Michaela playing on her swing set, me planting some flowers and Ron relaxing. We BBQ'd for dinner and ate outside...it was great. Then getting Ron back in the house was quite an ordeal. He was feeling pretty weak so it took us a while to get him to his recliner ( he had to use his walker to get there). Then at bedtime it took a few attempts to get there, the weakness is tough to deal with. Ron is a big guy and when he goes down I can't do that much to help him. It is so hard to see him like that, he gets so confused at the same time...tough to deal with.
We are starting his 3rd cycle of chemo this Wednesday, it takes a lot out of him but at least he doesn't get nauseous.
The best is my sister is coming to visit me this weekend...I'm so excited to see her again (she lives on Vancouver Island). She has been such an amazing spiritual support to me during this time. We're going to have a big BBQ on Sunday while she is here...I just love when my family comes to visit!!
Well I think I'll leave it on this high note...Good Night!!
Sunday, May 6, 2007
Relay for Life
Wow what an amazing day. Ron was able to make it out for the first lap of the relay, it is for Survivors and People Living with Cancer. My brother, SIL, niece, and two sisters came out to support Ron...it was so amazing.
It was such an emotional morning, Ron got to see so many people he hasn't spoken to since he's gotten sick. His Doctor did the opening speech and even said during it how pleased he was that Ron was able to make it. We got a ton of pictures, here is one of Ron with his mom (who is also a survivor) and Michaela.
Ron said this was the best day he's had since he got sick...wow that really brought tears to my eyes. There were so many people out to see him, he is so loved by so many people...I mean who visits their bank manager when he is sick!! One of his customers said she loves him like he was one of her children...Ron's boss actually flew up from Kamloops to participate.
This is an event that we have been involved in for so many years and we've always enjoyed it, it is amazing the significance it takes on when you are so affected by cancer.
Ron said the best thing to some of the girls he works with, he said don't ever take for granted the things you have. You never know when something like this could affect your life, we all hope and pray never.
Oh and an amazing thing happened while we were there. They had a draw for everyone registered for the first lap and Ron won a 4 day Pacific Coastal "Survivors at Sea" Cruise. Isn't that awesome, I'm not sure where it goes but we take off from Seattle so it includes our airfare to Vancouver and hotel and a shuttle to Seattle to get on the ship. So I told Ron that he had better be feeling better by then because I want to go!!!
It continually amazing me that even while we are going through something has horrible as this God still blesses us...I know some people may have a hard time seeing it...but we are so blessed by so many things!!
It was such an emotional morning, Ron got to see so many people he hasn't spoken to since he's gotten sick. His Doctor did the opening speech and even said during it how pleased he was that Ron was able to make it. We got a ton of pictures, here is one of Ron with his mom (who is also a survivor) and Michaela.Ron said this was the best day he's had since he got sick...wow that really brought tears to my eyes. There were so many people out to see him, he is so loved by so many people...I mean who visits their bank manager when he is sick!! One of his customers said she loves him like he was one of her children...Ron's boss actually flew up from Kamloops to participate.
This is an event that we have been involved in for so many years and we've always enjoyed it, it is amazing the significance it takes on when you are so affected by cancer.
Ron said the best thing to some of the girls he works with, he said don't ever take for granted the things you have. You never know when something like this could affect your life, we all hope and pray never.
Oh and an amazing thing happened while we were there. They had a draw for everyone registered for the first lap and Ron won a 4 day Pacific Coastal "Survivors at Sea" Cruise. Isn't that awesome, I'm not sure where it goes but we take off from Seattle so it includes our airfare to Vancouver and hotel and a shuttle to Seattle to get on the ship. So I told Ron that he had better be feeling better by then because I want to go!!!
It continually amazing me that even while we are going through something has horrible as this God still blesses us...I know some people may have a hard time seeing it...but we are so blessed by so many things!!
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